ugh.

i got my period yesterday. today's like the second day. meaning it's the ickiest, most disgusting, most feeling-bloated-but-not-full, most stomach-weird-feeling, most stay-at-home-and-mope-around day.

zz it's affecting my life too much.

and then i was doing my cle homework, on sex ed.
then i realise i kinda have double standards.
(i guess i knew that all along)
cos like, i know relationships with only feelings are not enough. the euphoria will fade. and when that happens, you need the substance to maintain your relationship.
and i don't know what we're doing.
i mean, it's obvious that this is so screwed up.
but i cant disentangle myself from it all.
because i'm still clutching on to that tiny hope that it will all work itself out.
when it obviously wont.
gosh, i'm such an idiot.
i'm wasting my life!
this is so not worth it, but i can't help it.
grr; WHY D:

i'm going to the library.

ugh.

i got my period yesterday. today's like the second day. meaning it's the ickiest, most disgusting, most feeling-bloated-but-not-full, most stomach-weird-feeling, most stay-at-home-and-mope-around day.

zz it's affecting my life too much.

and then i was doing my cle homework, on sex ed.
then i realise i kinda have double standards.
(i guess i knew that all along)
cos like, i know relationships with only feelings are not enough. the euphoria will fade. and when that happens, you need the substance to maintain your relationship.
and i don't know what we're doing.
i mean, it's obvious that this is so screwed up.
but i cant disentangle myself from it all.
because i'm still clutching on to that tiny hope that it will all work itself out.
when it obviously wont.
gosh, i'm such an idiot.
i'm wasting my life!
this is so not worth it, but i can't help it.
grr; WHY D:

i'm going to the library.